I’ve neglected this blog for quite a long time, for the lack of better statement, I’d say it’s because I have something better to do other than blogging. I’m still trying to adjust on my work timings (which includes the weekends, thanks to the never-sleeping travel industry that I’m in) and finding the time to write is hard. When I go home from work, I’m torn between spending time on my laptop to blog about the millions of ideas running through my head now or binge-watching on netflix. The latter always win.
In 2014, I quit my corporate job to be a full-time blogger and joined the bandwagon of all the other thousands of bloggers out there who are doing the same. It’s been a recurring thought for me at the time and with The Greek Mister’s full support, I decided to give it a try. I can always go back to work if it doesn’t fit me.
It worked well in the beginning, I was able to focus on my blog and improve it. My blog did really well during that time, I got media invitations of all kinds – press trips, hotel stays, restaurant reviews, etc. I was getting paid for my writing too. It was everything I had hoped for and probably even more. It never crossed my mind that my itsy bitsy tiny blog will become what it is now. My statistics were unbelievable considering that it was just a hobby when I started it.
But then at some point I got burnt out. It’s like I woke up one day and as I started my day to work on a blog post I thought, what the actual f*ck am I doing? Who is this for? Is this even for me anymore? Am I still enjoying this? The hobby became work and I think that was what made it bad. It’s becoming more and more stressful for me to keep the blog running as I try to meet the self-imposed deadlines for each posts that I’m writing and for each videos I’m editing. It was no longer a hobby, it’s now a job.
Whoever said “QUIT YOUR JOB TO BE A BLOGGER” cannot be more mistaken because you’re basically just quitting your corporate job and diving into self-employment which is actually more work than the former.
Fixed montly salary
Fixed timings (unless you go for overtime)
There’s a corporate structure and a designated duties and responsibilities that you are to do based on your position.
Paid holiday/sick leaves (unless you’re employed by Satan himself)
You have the option to switch off your work mode as soon as you’re home (again, unless you’re employed by Satan himself).
You have colleagues to talk to and b*tch about your boss.
Your salary is based entirely upon how much work you’ve done and if the companies you’ve worked for will pay you on time. There will be months that you don’t have a salary while there are months that you’re like a millionaire as all of the payments you didn’t receive from your previous projects will be deposited to your account all the same time.
You work your ass off day and night because the amount of time you spend working is equivalent to the amount you’ll get paid.
You’re the boss, the employee, the secretary, the marketing, the sales, the HR, the therapist, the tea-maker, the wine dispenser etc.
You have the flexibility on your holiday but there will be loss of earning during this time. Remember, you get paid based on the amount of time you spend working for yourself. So basically, you still have to work during your holiday specially if you’re a travel blogger as it can be a content for your blog. Also, more often than not, your stay is probably sponsored by the hotel so basically, you’ve got to work full time during your sponsored stay which means you don’t really get to enjoy it because you’re too busy capturing that sunset on your balcony or taking photos of their spa facilities.
Your home is your office, there’s no switching off from work mode.
You’re working on your own which makes you isolated to everyone else.
To be completely honest, I am much more happier now that I have a corporate job than I was as a blogger. I get a sense of fulfillment each day after a whole day at work, I no longer feel like my day was wasted. I now feel like I’m needed, that when I miss one day at work people will look for me because I do something valuable for the company I work for. I’m part of a team and when I’m not there, the team is not whole. I’ve missed a few days writing on this blog and I highly doubt my readers even noticed. I don’t think I can miss a few days at work without my boss calling me to check where the hell I am.
I don’t think I’m giving up something so valuable really because this blog is first and foremost, just a hobby. Now I can enjoy being a blogger once again and not be stressed about trivial things which nobody really cares for except for me about my blog.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that those who quit their job to be full time bloggers are nuts. No, they’re not, I actually do admire them for being able to live that kind of life. That life, however, isn’t for me and that’s ok. There’s really no right and wrong way on how to live your life and nobody can dictate anyone of what they should and shouldn’t do.
So were the 2 years of being a full-time blogger a complete waste of my life? No, not at all. I didn’t regret doing that. In fact, it was actually good decision for me because I no longer have that idea running at the back of my mind. There’s no more doubt and a “what if I’m a full time blogger?” question. Been there, done that, not for me. It’s also a good decision because now, I value my full-time job more than I did before. I now know that this is actually what I want to do.